Was I enough

 

Tonight I read a post with the questions I often ask myself.  

Was I enough for my kids?  Did I hug them enough?  Did I tell them I loved them enough?  Did I listen enough?  Did I laugh enough with them?  Did I give them enough independence?  Or did I give them too much?  Did I rush them to grow up too much?  Walking, talking, sleeping through the night, potty training-they were stages I wanted to get through but I hope I never rushed them.  Did I teach them to be kind but not to get walked over?  Do they know how much I love them and how much joy they fill my heart with?  Or do I look too tired and that I don’t show that joy enough?  

I treasure the nights they ask me to lay with them until they fall asleep.  Do they know this?  

Do they know that some days I don’t feel like fighting but I look at them and Bryan and know I have more fight in me?  That I am not ever going to give up the fight. And I do this for them?  

Do they know I would go through anything to protect them?  I don’t ever want to see them hurting, but I worry every night that I won’t always be able to protect them and did I prepare them enough for this?  

I hope I have told them enough how much they mean to me. How much I love them, how proud of them I am every single day no matter what happens. That they are the energy that keeps me going on dark days. No matter how dark things get i hope they can always remember this!