This time on Friday my scan will be over and I will be getting ready for Baelor's Birthday Parties. So many emotions going on-I'm nervous about the scan. I never understood the term scanxiety, now I know how real it is! I know I shouldn't be nervous-its not like I can change the outcome. I can be positive, think positive thoughts.
I'm sad that I have this weight hanging over my head this weekend. I will make it a great weekend for Baelor, it will be all about him, but in the back of mind I will be counting down the hours until I get my results back.
I get grouchy around scan times. I don't mean too but my anxiety kicks in I get short and I don't like waiting. This weekend I will try my hardest to not be grouchy. I will try my hardest to take in every minute of Baelor's birthday celebrations! I know this won't be my last one with him but it will be the last time I celebrate my boys turning 6! I will take a moment to start writing letters to my boys. I will take an extra 5 mins at bedtime to cuddle and give hugs-I know there will be a time that Baelor won't want to cuddle. I will take it all in this weekend and not worry about things I can't change.
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