Cold

 Recently I have noticed that I am struggling to stay warm.  I think part of it is my feet and the whatever I have.  I feel if my feet can’t get warm the rest of me struggles to get warm.  

Yesterday Baelor had lacrosse.  Lacrosse was at Triton High School.  For those of you that know Triton you know it’s a wind tunnel.  I struggled to get warm after practice.  Nothing helped.  

Which carried over to today.  i have tried everything.  Warm shower, heated vest, warm socks, slippers around the house.  Tonight my hands are freezing, my feet are freezing. I’m bundled up in bed falling asleep watching the Red Sox documentary.   When I realized something…when I met with the nurse practitioner on Friday she told me that they have heated blankets for chemo.   I legit can not wait to be wrapped in a heated blanket for a couple of hours.  (Of course it’s going to be 60’s on Tuesday.). It’s the little things right!?!  

I also think I am overthinking what I need.   I have peanuts for after (I don’t eat them nearly enough) for protein, I have my drinks to help with my electrolytes. I have plenty of protein drinks as well.  i have my meds all done for the week, I made sure to have chapstick in my bag, I put lotion as well to help with the split fingertips.  I put my tums in my work bag as well.  

i am nervous about the day of side effects. i know Ive said this before but I don’t do well with the unknown.  I am sure I will be feeling better about things once I have the first one finished.  

thank you all for the words of encouragement.  I read them all.  Often times many times a week.  When I am having a bad day or a discouraging day I reread and remember that I have so many people standing behind me supporting me.  

picture is a bag someone posted on a lung cancer facebook page.  love it need to find it.