Not much to report...

 I don't have much to report back on.  I say that and then I will write a novel...lol.  

Its been a week and a half since I last had treatment.  Honestly, for the most part I am feeling kind of good.  Today I had a video call with Dr. P.  He asked how I was feeling.  Besides for my feet, my nails, my lower back, and my neck I feel great.  I am sleeping (for the most part) through the night.  

I am not going to lie I am worried about my feet/legs.  Its getting harder to do things.  I haven't driven in several weeks which brings on a whole other level or guilt, shame, sadness, all the feelings.  I'd like to say this is the hardest part of this horrible disease.  But its really not.  You see I have an incredible support system.  Bryan, my mom, my sisters are making sure that I am getting to work, getting home from work, go for rides when I have been in the house too much.  My bestie has been picking me up Sunday mornings to go for coffee runs.  Friends have offered to pick up the kids for activities and play dates.  I am making the best of the situation.  So although its not the worst thing that has happened, it has been life changing.  

Next week is going to be a weird week.  You see I only have two appointments...and both are for fluids.  The following week is going to be a shit show.  I have chemo, I have targeted therapy, I have an mri and a ct scan.  I'm nervous about the MRI/CT scans.  More nervous than I normally would be.  My symptoms are back (I had several months of back free time).  I'd almost say that my symptoms are worse.  Not the back pain, but the neck pain is new,  and the feet are def worse.  I get random pains, cramps, aches.   Three years ago I wouldn't have thought much of the random aches and pains.  Three years I panic.  I wonder if it is the cancer spreading.  I wonder if the medicine is working.  I wonder how much worse are they going to get before they get better.  

I am going through the pictures from the photo booth and loving all them.  I keep meaning to send on along the pictures that I have.  I know its been a month since the celebration, but I want to thank everyone again.  Reading the cards, looking at the pictures, talking to everyone it reminds me that I am not fighting this alone.  I have so many supports-more than I even knew I had.  Thank you!  Thank you for supporting me through this terrible journey.  Thank you for always having my back.  Thank you for the meals, the texts, the cards, random facebook messages that make me chuckle.  Thank you!!!