This will be short.

 

There are many nights I lay in bed while my boys watch YouTube or ay video games.  I lay in bed and muffle my tears.  I cry bc my legs and feet hurt.  Although I have lost sensation in my legs and feet-my bones ache.  And now my neck and my lower back.  Everything constantly aches.  And then the stabbing pains that come in my toes.  Or when I accidentally hit my toe with the grossness.   

I’m over the pain, I’m over the uncomfortable feelings I have.  I’m over it all.  

so I cry myself to sleep and hope the pain in my feet and legs will go away overnight.  That I’ll wake up feeling better.  I cry because of the pain I cry bc I am tired of not feeling like myself.  I cry bc this isn’t the life I imagined.  I cry bc I am mourning the life I thought I’d have.  I cry bc I am scared if this pain is getting to me how much more will I be able to take…