2025

 One word for 2025…survived…i survived 2025.  There were a lot of curveballs thrown at me…some I handled with grace some not so much grace.  

It started with a daily migraine…it ended with progression… and in between I had:

2 Lumbar Punctures

1 Brain surgery

1 port placement

12 chemo sessions

40 ish fluid appointments

15 MRI’s/CT scans

Not as many pokes and vein finds as 2024-thank you to my port!

Too many tears to count

Numerous sleepless nights

A ton of conversations about treatment

Even more conversations about not being a hero and taking my pain meds

And a breakdown.

There was a lot of good that came out of 2025.  

Friendships renewed and celebrated 

Finding my voice when it comes to treatment 

Accepting help

Realizing the importance of self care

Finishing projects

Reading more 

In 2026 I want to be more present.  

I want to knit more (I’ve already finished 1 hat and starting my second) 

I want to read more 

I want to communicate better-sorry for all the times I haven’t responded in a timely manner. 

I want to be firm and not feel guilty about standing my ground.  

Clean out the clutter-in my house, emotionally, physically (I started with my closet-next I’ll move onto my friends group on Facebook)   

I want to stress less and let what happens happen.   

I want to panic less when it comes to aches and pains

So here we are day 3 of the new year-I am starting to panic over Tuesday (Dr Piper is back and I start treatment).  I am panicking about the ankle xray I had because I have deep bone pain and I have fallen twice.   But there isn’t anything I can do about the outcome of either so I’ll keep my chin up and start my nervous knitting.   Let’s see how many hats I’ll complete before Wednesday 😂😂😂  if you want an original hat by me-let me know.   Or a blanket-I’ve run out of people for blankets…lol